Week 23: Charged By A Second Wind

Just after this week’s webinar I took the Self-Assessment Test in the workbook and posted the change from the first week of the course.

Here’s what I wrote in the Alliance General Discussion area of the Master Key Master Mind Alliance website:

My first score for the Self-Assessment Test I think was 54. Today 28. It seems as though it crept up on me. Since taking charge of myself since mid January things are far more enjoyable and time is no longer a slave master. Freedom is a way of being happy. So joyous to be light!

Over the course of the next couple of days I received five comments.

Lana

Yahhhhhh congrats my friend…. i need to do mine today.”

Rebekah
Wow that is sooooo amazing! Jump around the room in a power pose! You have shined this whole experience! And it shows x

Cynthia
Bravo!

Dorcas
That is amazing Grant, wow. Congratulations.

Janet
congratulations to you Grant !

I had intended to reply to the first two comments and after seeing that there were five comments, “Do it now” actually got me to take stock. I was genuinely grateful that they had all taken the time to acknowledge what I hadn’t – an inner transformation! I realized that indeed I wasn’t the same as I was coming into the course.

Here’s my reply:

Thanks for your support ladies. Personally, I didn’t get a “WOW” but you guys are making me reflect on what has happened on this MKE journey. I am different, for the better. Something seems to be percolating for my blog. You are all angels! LOL. Grant

On Tuesday I was presented with evidence of an inner shift.

I’m working away at my computer on my Tapas For Life short course, “SIAWordPlay – a word morph and word association research tool” which launches on March 31st when my computer just shuts down.

Maybe I flinched a bit… a little annoyance catastrophe “What if it doesn’t open again?” fleeting entered my mind. No sooner had I thought they I breathed normally, took a sip of coffee and started to reboot.

For about 3-5 seconds everything is going well and then I realise it is just spinning, and spinning and…spinning… A couple of minutes go by and I decided that I should let it run its course, which gave me the opportunity to finish off my MKE readings for the morning.

Ten minutes later the circle of dots is still spinning. Give it a bit more time. After a couple of more minutes I thought I need to ‘hold down the on/off power button’ and force the computer to switch itself off. “Give it a moment or two.” I take another bite of my toasted salami and cheese and switch it back on.

All goes well for the first several seconds and then it defaults to a black and white screen suggesting that I insert a boot disk. I take another breath, take another bite of my toasted salami and cheese and take another sip of coffee.

I realize, “I’ve been here before. All I need to do is to restart it.” I restart the computer and for a few seconds everything is normal and there it goes again. “Insert a boot disk.” (For anyone who is computer literate the accuracy of the computer message is only at best ‘in the same ballpark.’

I take another breath and this time I take in some mouthfuls of water. “Give it another go,” but this time I press F2, before it defaults to the black and white screen and the “Insert a boot disk” message.  I was hoping to open my laptop up safe mode, but I couldn’t find any safe mode…

Then real panic kicked in. No matter which key I pressed nothing happened. The computer was oblivious to my predicament. It didn’t care that I needed to work on my SIAWordPlay course content. It wasn’t interested in any deadline and certainly didn’t care about my feelings.

So, I took a breath. “What would my future self do now?” I knew I needed help. And, then I remembered my computer wizard Michal, an archangel I mentioned in my Week 21 post “Can Truth Be Found Playing Hookey?”

I find Michal on my mobile and call him only to get a recorded message “I’m not available today and will be back tomorrow morning.”

So, I took a breath, and left him a message. At the time, I hadn’t realised that this was an old message, recorded yesterday, because our Monday was an Adelaide Cup Holiday, and Michal would be enjoying his long week-end.

I take another bite of my toasted salami and cheese and take another sip of coffee and then continue my MKE readings.

About ten minutes later my mobile rings and its Michal who asks “What is the problem with your laptop?” “The same as before. It is getting the ‘Insert a boot disk’ message.

Michal steps me through the process very calmly and professionally as always and all I have to do is to wait for the computer to reboot. Michal assures me that it will operate normally.

A few minutes later I send Michal this text message: “It’s amazing! Not for you. Loved your assurance Michal. It’s now back.”

Then, I take a breath. I take another bite of my toasted salami and cheese and take another sip of coffee and FINISH my readings!

I feel charged. It’s like I’ve got my second wind.

I stretch a bit, go outside to feel the warmth of the sun on my face and look into the perfect blue sky.

I walk back to my laptop, sit down assuredly and it’s like I didn’t miss a beat. I change and improve my course with ease.

I take a breath. I take another bite of my toasted salami and cheese and take another sip of coffee.

 

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