During the last few weeks different things were happening. Different because I didn’t have the luxury of being alone and able to go about the MKE honorary and tangible requirements by myself. I had a social life. Christmas, catching up with friends and family at different events, having dinner for three, going out for breakfasts or coffees a few times, going swimming,… This was a huge change in my weekly routine.
My slippage began when I stopped going to the gym to use the walking machine. You know, when a crack is left unattended over time it grows with use to the point that it breaks. That’s exactly what happened to my office chair. Here’s the rub. I went out and paid for a replacement and I’m liking it.
It’s far better that my pMA (poor Mental Attitude) gave credit for it when I bought it last week. It’s all these things – it’s whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy! It’s downright a better chair than the old one. I just love it. I am only just acknowledging this and my attitude today is a PMA (Positive Mental Attitude).
I have allowed my belief in my DMP or my written goal set to falter, especially in the last three weeks. Financial constraints have placed a hold on the establishment of a new look hosted blog https://MaatNow.com and to my Health & Wellbeing on Earth @ $US 1 p.w. Foundation. Blindly, I allowed ‘impatience’ to rear its ugly head and have struggled to deal with its fallout.
Although, I have still been quite active or busy, my productivity has been low. My energy levels have been depleted not necessarily by genuine lack of sleep (3.5 – 4 hours per day), but because I have exhausted myself by worry and inaction.
I even got to the point, after 17 weeks, of thinking about quitting. But then I read the index card behind my Vibration Machine:
“A loser never wins. A winner never quits.”
Still, I struggled,…
One of the things I added to my DMP after starting the 26 week MKMMA (Master Key Master Mind Alliance course) is a Tapas For Life short course called “The Language Matrix – the ultimate wordplay!”
All my posts were going to go on my new hosted blog and will be added soonish. In the meantime I have been emailing my posts out. One trait of my Old Blueprint was wearing my heart on my sleeve, where I had given away my power. I had a tendency to be oversensitive to criticism, lacking faith and belief in whatever I created – the approval seeking syndrome.
My guide, JJ, posted on Marco Polo yesterday “I give myself permission to (….)? Today I poloed back, “I give myself permission to be authentic.” In MKE terms, ‘authentic’ would be as my future self, the person I intend to become – an ideal that is worth striving for.
Being asked to blog in the MKE has become an enjoyable experience, however blogging about something very close to my heart, that hasn’t seen the light of day with another soul for 25 years has taken me out of my comfort zone. Just like the MKE blogs I am happy with what I create. Unlike, the MKE where other participants leave positive comments my email posts had these, but also reply emails that I took to be not so favourable.
My faith in what I am creating and sharing through email has been buoyed by three recent emails.
From last week’s post, 3 messages that chipped away more cement!
Thanks Grant ,
I enjoyed this very much, you’re getting me to think differently, more deeply…I look forward to the next post
I was disturbed by and very grateful to Barry for bringing this to my attention.
I have read those emails but I am afraid I am at a loss to see where you are coming from. If I understood what the objective was I might be able to make a comment.
So much so, that I decided to post a reply to my Language Matrix group yesterday afternoon. This morning I received this reply from Scott.
Aha! I can understand what I am looking to achieve by reading your emails now. I am enjoying them very much and you clearly have a very deep intelligence there. Thank you for including me on your posts – would you like me to pass you around a little by getting people to email you to be put on mailing list?
Abraham Lincoln said:
“You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.”
Here’s what I take from Abraham Lincoln:
No matter how much I wish it to be so;
“I can please some of the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but I cannot please all the people all the time.”
So, once again I am being called to be a grateful receiver.
Blogging is a new learning experience for me. What I am discovering through writing the blog posts and receiving feedback is about the kinds of people who are representative of my niche.
Unite in Unity