Perhaps I let go of being lost and lost myself in the MKE experience.
Perhaps I went deeper. Perhaps I entered the flow of the Master Key Experience. Perhaps I wasn’t trying anymore. Perhaps I was being, and it was a natural outpouring of my true heart’s intention.
Good things are happening this week and I am feeling more at ease with the process and my acceptance of what is.
To give my best, I am accepting where I am at and notice without judging the way I am handling an opportunity. This indifference is allowing me to take a breath, take a break and take a fresh look at things. It has been said that repetition is the mother of all invention. Invention is the manifestation of an idea which stems from our imaginings and this week subby is helping out. Here’s one example.
So, it’s 9:40pm on a cold, blustery Tuesday night and I had just read the Greatest Salesman and was almost on the bed when my “I” reiterated one of my promises, “I promise to go to the gym every day.” Briefly, I started justifying my forgetfulness with the usual ‘excuse recollection’ of how it had been a busy day, and… I caught myself. “Do it now. Do it now. Do it now!”
It was so easy with those three little words to turn around and get changed into my gym gear even though I was tired and had started yawning, with the expectation of sleep only minutes away. It wasn’t I who said those three little words, it was the “I” acting through the subby.
So, I’m driving and the window is misty and the windscreen wipers cross back and forth. I’m cold and the car hasn’t heated up and as I switch on the heater I get a blast of cool air on my exposed legs. “Off with that!” I tell myself and give the car a minute to warm up.
“Ahhhh…that’s better,” as the heat thaws my legs. I haven’t been to the gym for three weeks and this is my second time since including it on my service card. On Monday I spent 20 minutes on the walking machine. “15 or 20 minutes,” I thought to myself. I quickly started the machine on manual and started at 4.0 because of my knee injury. After a minute I adjusted it up by 0.5 to 4.5 and after 5 minutes to 5.0.
During this period I could feel myself walking more erect, feeling lighter, my feet didn’t hurt, and I had sort of swagger in my step. It was pleasurable and after the next 5 minutes I put it up to 5.5. Making these tiny adjustments I gained the confidence to walk without watching my feet and there it was 6.0 and I noticed the time. I was already up to 23 minutes.
Just focusing on the short period of 5 minutes or one mini task period, gave me the experiencing of losing time. It felt that the time had gone quickly. It certainly was easy because it had been enjoyable. It wasn’t a chore. So, after completing the 6.0 five-minute period I cooled down for the last period at 5.0. Thirty minutes in total.
What was unexpected is that I felt more alive, fresher than I would have if I had decided to climb onto the bed. It was such a great feeling coming home and there was no resentment of the time it would take me to complete my going to bed ritual. And guess what – I woke up early and went back to the gym by 5:50 am. What a buzz!
Perhaps I’m getting it. Perhaps I am allowing myself to surrender to a process I have chosen. Perhaps I am giving my best. Perhaps there is nothing to fear. What I do know is that the more I immerse myself in the MKE, the more I am willing to go deeper, the less I am the obstacle and the more optimistic I become.